When God Isn’t There

Picture this: You’re at a party. The room is crowded with noisy yet familiar voices calling out. People are laughing, telling jokes, catching up with old friends and meeting new ones. There are at least five people within arms length that you should feel comfortable reaching out to but you can’t. You feel alone and trapped. In fact, no matter how familiar a person is, you feel alone in life. Maybe it’s because you’re a minister who is struggling through a broken marriage, trying to find healing without compromising a reputation (or more). Perhaps the reason you feel so alone is because you just lost your best friend due to an ugly argument. For some, they may be harboring a secret so deep, so breathtaking that the idea of small talk scares them, for fear that somehow that secret will slip out. And for others, it’s a dark, indescribable wall of depression that separates them from their loved ones. Maybe it’s your past that resurfaces in your mind every six months, crippling you with guilt. We all find ourselves alone at some point in life for some reason if not several. A few weeks ago I was just coming back from my beautiful honeymoon. I was so excited to be in our first home together. With this marriage came a specific transition I knew would be hard for both my daughter & I… her first, solo bedroom. I’ve been co-sleeping with my baby since the beginning. Not that a mom needs to excuse this but I just didn’t see Korey coming into our lives so quickly and quite frankly enjoyed the company of my...

Hard Hearted & Unaware

Loving people is important to me. It probably should be considering as a Christian it’s Top 2 of things I’m called to do (Mark 12:31). I think it’s important to be real so, if I’m being honest, sometimes it’s a struggle to show love, especially to the people closest to me. You see, the people closest to us can also be the ones who hurt and disappoint us the most. I like transparency so I’ll admit that when someone fails me personally, it can be so hard to show unadulterated love in return. So let’s do this little exercise together: First, think of someone that has personally failed you. When I say “failed” I mean think of someone who has betrayed, crushed, abandoned or publicly humiliated you. Did you love them before they failed you? What about during the hurtful situation? Ok, what about now? Do you love them now? Dig deep for a second. Do you really love them? Maybe you have moved on from that moment to find a healthy and resounding love that covers past transgressions. If that is your scenario – YES! Thank God for that! This is what we strive for! But maybe there are even a few readers that think of a past hurt and still feel an ugly emotion in their chest. Perhaps just hearing their name causes a heat to rise from the gut of your soul. I describe it this way because I’ve been there and that’s the best I can put words to it. Lately I’ve been having a discussion with a small group from my church in regards...