Tell It To My Heart

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Remember that 1987 hit, the one by Taylor Dayne, ‘Tell It To My Heart?’ (I bet you’re looking it up now.)

It’s like most other catchy 80’s tunes with a sticky chorus that’ll have you singing for days…or, in this case, decades. Anyway, I break into song in random ‘doings’ of the day, mostly when I’m alone. Recently, up to my elbows in dirty dishes, this was my little chant.

It hit me.

As of late, I’ve felt a real sense of losing in life. Just not dealing well, ya know? I typically deal with things in my head. I love ideas and information and putting lots of ‘stuff’ up there and reading and asking questions and seeking answers.

And, I go to God.

I really DO. But, my heart has been so, so heavy. Somewhere between the head and the heart, things just got spacey. It’s maddening.

It came to a boil months ago. I had one of those hard conversations; you know, one of those ‘talks’ that are easy to put off, until you realize that they are inevitable. And it was GOOD. But it was HARD. And I was emotionally exposed.

No amount of head knowledge or wisdom or experience can lift a heavy heart. I know this because I tried. Out of sheer determination, I TRIED. I still couldn’t be free.

The heart. It’s like the emotional drum of the soul. Beat, beat, beating and longing and wishing and hoping and refusing to let go. I can decide in my head all day long NOT to be disappointed, hurt, or offended.

But….Ohhhh my heart. I can’t help it.

Now, there’s a point, if you’re spending time with God, when He takes you on something of a ‘picture walk’ of your life. You see glimpses of your story, and though details remain obscure, you can catch a theme. A vignette surfaces. And this is what I got:

Among the mental mess, I was just not good at letting God have His way.

I needed Jesus to ‘tell it to my heart.’ Not in a light-hearted 80’s pop melody, but in an unimaginable, greater way, one that I couldn’t have thought of myself. And He did and He IS.

Just days ago, in prayer, I thought about how I steep in emotions and linger to expectation and sadly, I end up creating my own heartache by doing so. Such a shame.

Then…THIS. It was as if I’d read it for the first time.   A bold and powerful declaration from the Lord…

‘IF the Son has set us free, we ARE free indeed’ [John 8:36 – NIV]

I paid attention. I read it over and over, and I remembered the season we’re in and Jesus’s birthday and this most excellent promise in setting His people free by way of His Son. The message was extraordinarily personal ,which is the grace-way of God, isn’t it? He is perfectly intentional and individual in timing and how He speaks.

So, what ‘can’t you get over’ right now? What emotion is controlling you — claiming you? Because, sister, Jesus was born to set YOU free. And, nothing you go through – good or bad – will ever be more important than that.

It’s the greatest truth ever told to this girl’s heart.

Pray –

Heavenly Father – your truth is our light, and you provide plenty of truth to live in. Yet, we find ourselves tied to the mundane & wandering around in darkness, held strong by things tugging at our hearts. Father, we don’t want to live this way.

This season & always, help us remember your one & only Son, Jesus. In Him, we have an established position. We are favored, forgiven, & free…through & through, indeed.

 

Summer Pendley

Hi there 🙂 I'm Summer, daughter of Jesus...saved, restored, & known by Him. I've been married to my love, Jason, for 15 years, and am a happy mommy to a son, Noah, and daughter, Sailer. I love quiet mornings, coffee, listening to music, reading, running, and dreaming 😉 I'm passionate about simple things, and making time to encourage and love others well. The intentionality of Jesus, in pursuing me, hemming me in, gathering the ruins of my life, and lavishing grace over me overwhelms me daily. You'll find me here, in story after story of Him rescuing me, loving me, teaching me, and drawing me into worship. In honesty, I'll share of the emotional and psychological strains of my life & how Jesus continues to reclaim & rebuild, from the inside out. Let me always speak of His faithfulness & goodness...so that you will know that He is good.

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  1. TELL IT TO YOUR HEART: THANK YOU FOR EVERY WORD YOU WROTE I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH FOR YEARS, A BROKEN, UNFORGIVING HEART; FEELING LIKE A PRISONER IN MY OWN MIND. THANK YOU FOR YOUR TESTAMONY

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    • Gloria…a prisoner in your own mind…YES. I understand that. It’s a very real struggle. Praying boldly on your behalf…for freedom in Jesus. You are loved…and favored. Blessings to you…:)

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  2. What a good word for this Monday morning! I have freedom from all my mental and emotional wrestling through Jesus Christ. Whenever the door arises to enter into that madness, I can choose to shut it and walk away. I’ve found freedom in Christ!

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    • Alisa….Celebrating with YOU! We CAN choose to shut those doors…and glory to God for the power to do so…:)

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  3. Summer, boy, have I been there. And just a few months ago as well. Someone said some things that pierced my heart and cut me to the quick. In truth, it took me to my knees and all the way to the ground, face down. I saw myself in her eyes and it was a revelation I was unprepared to see. Since then I have kept constantly in prayer about our relationship and struggle to let go of the hurt and pride and show love to her in a way that she feels loved. Thank you for reminding me that I am free in Christ. He is using this to remind me to be more intentional about how I express my love to others. I just need to accept His forgiveness for the times I’ve not done so and live in the peace only He can bring.

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    • Thank you for sharing a bit of your story…and heart. I’ve read this several times. Trading pain for LOVE can only be done through prayer, and in that, we find solace…finally. But, it must continue. Like you said, it involves an intentionality on our parts…being ever-vigilant to fight, fight, fight…so that we can love, love, love 😉 We have the full armor of God…we have all we need. Blessings to you, Sabra…

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  4. I was browsing through some of the recent Internet Cafe Devotions and I remembered reading yours almost two weeks ago. But your title caught my attention again and something tugged at my heart to read it once more. I have found myself wandering around in darkness the past two weeks dealing with a physical ailment, nothing major just part of aging. But I’m not use to dealing with sickness because at 65 I have been blessed with wonderful health. However, I had been allowing this setback to conquer me, prevent me from really getting into my daily devotionals, and pretty much make me miserable. I had forgotten that I had already been set free from this by the One and Only who has already conquered it for me. Now I release it to Him and find freedom and true victory in His healing. So thank you for that catchy little title which brought me back to re-read your post again:)

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