Right In Front Of Us

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I’m notorious for placing things on tables and countertops only to forget where I’ve put them. When I ask my husband or one of the kids to help me look, they spot them right away (of course!) Often, whatever I was looking for was right in front of me…

For as long as I can remember, I’ve had big passions and dreams. Yet, I’ve lived with hesitancy and a strong sense of reservation about them. Whether it’s fear of doing the wrong thing at the wrong time, or pursuing something selfishly, insecurity, or assuming that it’s not from God…over time, I’ve put those ideas and dreams to rest.

With each passing year, particularly the last 3 years, I’ve noticed that the greatest passions of my life are more persistent than ever. As 2016 was beginning to close, around November-ish, I felt something stirring there…in that dream place where all of my wishes and hopes have been tucked away. One Sunday when I was sitting in church, this came to mind… “You’ve always had to be pushed.”

It took me off guard a bit, but knowing myself, I accepted it as a thought from God concerning me. My response? “Well, I figured you’d push me when the time was right, God.”

That day began a string of conversations and ponderings between God and I that eventually led me to Matthew 14. It begins soon after the meal for 5,000 was finished…

Jesus tells the disciples to get in the boat and begin moving over to the other side (of the sea of Galilee).

Jesus then went to pray alone.

“Meanwhile, the boat was far out to sea when the wind came up against them and they were battered by the waves. At about four o’clock in the morning, Jesus came toward them walking on the water. They were scared out of their wits. “A ghost!” they said, crying out in terror.

But Jesus was quick to comfort them. “Courage, it’s me. Don’t be afraid.”

Peter, suddenly bold, said, “Master, if it’s really you, call me to come to you on the water.”

He said, “Come ahead.”

[Matthew 14: 24-29 the message]

As the story continues, Peter experiences a moment of panic when he looks down to see the stormy waves beneath his feet, causing him to sink. But, it’s the dialogue prior to this that I can’t get over. Think about it. Peter was suddenly bold…Confident! He didn’t say, “God, if it’s you, come get me!” He said, “if it’s really you, call ME to come to you on the water…and I will get out of the boat and walk.” I added this last part, because I know that this was Peter’s intention to get out of the boat {in the middle of a storm, mind you} and walk on the water to Jesus. And, he did just that, he walked on water. Was Peter crazy? Yes! But, walking on water IS crazy!

Perhaps the greatest phenomenon of this moment was not the billowing winds and waves of the storm, but the surge of crazy faith that enabled Peter to rise up with boldness in a moment that didn’t make sense. He would come to Jesus, and it was his choice…his idea. He believed that if he moved, God would meet him there. All he needed to hear was God’s call to “Come ahead.”

{Pause}

I’ve seen it. I’ve lived it. I’ve spoken about it with other women. There’s so much confusion regarding our ‘calling.’ Without question, social media has given way to this. Lives and moments are presented to us in feeds and reels. They’re overexposed, highly saturated, and sometimes, I get over-stimulated with it all. I start to think “Does what I do matter?” “Am I doing the right thing?” “Do I look the part?” The loneliness, rejection, and dissatisfaction—it all creeps in, and I am sort of whisked away in spiritual amnesia.

If only we could have this personality type, body shape, hairstyle, dress code, profession, economic standing. If only we could live in this area. If only we could find a way to get in with this person or that group. If only she would be my friend. It’s an idealized, modern-day twist on worshipping and following Jesus, and it sweeps across every computer screen as well as the ones in our hands.

I’ve wondered—Are we more attracted to others and their lifestyle in pursuing Jesus? Or, are we attracted to and drawn to Jesus Himself? Right now, my heart beats anxiously as I type.

All Peter wanted was to get to Jesus. That desire was so strong, that it awakened a wild faith that defied gravity and placed his feet right onto the stormy waves. I am in awe. I want the type of faith that is focused on following Him…and no one else.

“Lord, your voice is over many waters, and your glory thunders. It is powerful, full of majesty, able to shake the wilderness and strip the forests bare. You sit as King forever! You give unyielding strength (Courage!) to your people.”

{Psalm 29-Paraphrased}

Pray –

Help us see that the One that we’re looking for is you, Jesus. You’re right in front of us.

 

Summer Pendley

Hi there 🙂 I'm Summer, daughter of Jesus...saved, restored, & known by Him. I've been married to my love, Jason, for 15 years, and am a happy mommy to a son, Noah, and daughter, Sailer. I love quiet mornings, coffee, listening to music, reading, running, and dreaming 😉 I'm passionate about simple things, and making time to encourage and love others well. The intentionality of Jesus, in pursuing me, hemming me in, gathering the ruins of my life, and lavishing grace over me overwhelms me daily. You'll find me here, in story after story of Him rescuing me, loving me, teaching me, and drawing me into worship. In honesty, I'll share of the emotional and psychological strains of my life & how Jesus continues to reclaim & rebuild, from the inside out. Let me always speak of His faithfulness & goodness...so that you will know that He is good.

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