These past few months have found me living in a 6th grader’s world. Even for the mama with less of a ‘math/science mind,’ it hasn’t been so bad 😉 Truth be told, the academics are a walk in the park compared to the social scene (hand over my mouth). That’s clearly a story for another day.
Like many of you, our mornings are busy. While we prepare as much as possible the evening before, there’s always part of the morning that feels harried. Needless to say, coming back to a quiet house after school drop-off is kind of a beautiful thing. This morning, as I’m clearing off the kitchen counter, this question comes to mind, and with it, a message…
Why don’t you ask for more?
Almost simultaneously, I catch a vision of a rubber band, pulled in opposite directions, tight and thin in the middle. Then this word:
My thoughts turn to my son. He’s been sharing with me about plate tectonics, and how they crash and slide up against each other, making bulges along the sea floor. We’ve also discussed how the plates pull apart, in a divergent boundary.
All of these thoughts swirl through my mind in a matter of seconds, but my wonderings suddenly stop when I realize that this is a picture of my prayer life. Though I speak often about the importance of prayer, and the power within, I hold back.
In the fabric of my being, there’s a tendency that is woven so deeply there, it is often unnoticeable to me.
That tendency? It’s all about ME, and it can look like this:
Maybe I’ll surrender my ideas about how something will turn out, but hold on to the day-to-day process of waiting. Maybe I’ll hold back details out of fear that God may require me to go through something difficult…or maybe I’ll keep things from God because I just don’t believe that He could bring good from them.
These thoughts are hard to come to terms with, but they are there. A quick check of the word, Divergent led me to this…Infinite. Now, things were coming together.
On the other side of the limitations I place around prayer and believing God is a limitless, ever-present Savior with resources that are infinite concerning me.
Here’s an account of the latter portion of King Asa’s rule in 2 Chronicles 16…
First, for 36 of the 41 years of King Asa’s reign, things were peaceful. God showed favor towards him, and he prospered. Yet, when the King of Israel came against King Asa, he turned to his own provisions, not to God. This proved to be his greatest folly.
It’s important to understand that Asa still worshiped God. Yet, God was no longer in his life as a “moment by moment loved and trusted Reality” [Piper].
A prophet, Hanani, reminded Asa of God’s faithfulness to him in the past…
“Because you relied on the King of Syria and did not rely on the LORD your God, the army of the King of Syria has escaped out of your hand. Were not the Ethiopians and Lubim a huge army with a great number of chariots and horsemen? Yet because you relied on the LORD, He placed them in your hand
[2 Chronicles 16:7,8 AMP].”
Verse 9: God is searching for the ones that believe completely…
“For the eyes of the LORD move to and fro throughout the earth so that He may support those whose heart is completely HIS.”
What God wanted me to hear, standing in my kitchen this morning, is that I can approach Him with boldness. I can have more peace, power, freedom, and courage there. I can ask for more, because I can believe for more. God, with His infinite love and power, promises to uphold me.
In Him, I lean not on a broken reed [Isaiah 36], but on the Rock of Ages.
I’m newly aware of this tension, God. You’re pulling me into vast, wide-open belief. Please forgive me for holding back from you. If it weren’t for your grace, abounding, I’d never have the hope of believing completely.
“Now that we know what we have—Jesus, this great High Priest with ready access to God—let’s not let it slip through our fingers. We don’t have a priest who is out of touch with our reality. He’s been through weakness and testing, experienced it ALL—all but the sin. So let’s walk right up to him and get what he is so ready to give. Take the mercy, accept the help.” [Hebrews 4:16 The Message]