Sisters…in the great casting call of life, all of us are waiting for something: a new thing, good news, a reward, a beginning or an end. And, in the wait, are we intent on becoming, or beholding?
Sigh. It’s a heavy question.
Before I met my husband, I was a lady in waiting. Then, I was a college graduate, in waiting, for a job. I waited for the job, landed it, and found out a few months later that I was pregnant. A new wait began…a momma-to-be in waiting.
In the ups and downs and round and rounds, we wait. And, it’s often about what we’re becoming, isn’t it? Not that it’s a bad thing to anticipate change and growth and maturity and even righteousness. These things make waiting a little more bearable, because it keeps things exciting. But, we all know that the longer the wait, the less exciting it becomes. And THAT is the point of contention.
Recently, our family made a big decision. And, at first, there was a great deal of confirmation and adrenaline with it. But the wait became long — longer than expected. Gradually, the big wait felt more like, um…the big weight.
So, I did what any upright Christian lady would do (being sarcastic, of course):
I got a little bothered by the long wait and got a bit wordy with my prayers and petitions. Do you do that? Suddenly, I had a lot of genius ideas about how to get the ball rollin’ and begged the Lord for signs and more confirmation. I acted out.
So Jesus did what only He could do.
In grace (so much grace!), He showed Himself faithful by leading me to His Word. My heart was sensitive to it. So often, we gloss over words in scripture, and dismiss the order and intentionality of them. One of these words is behold.
Before doing a new thing [Isaiah 43:19], before bringing good news [Luke 2:10], and before His coming again [Revelation 22:12], we see it…behold. Behold is placed before something. It implies this: a waiting period!
I can’t say I’ve completely ‘caught on’ to the fullness of the JOY being offered here, in the wait. Fact : I’m wrestling at this very moment, with sharing this, knowing that I am not ‘on the other side’ of the wait yet (see, the struggle with what I’m becoming continues). But, what I DO know, in beholding Jesus, is that He is faithful. He works in the window of in the meantime…all of the time. His love will not be subdued. His plan will not change. Believing this and preaching this…
“There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears.” [Philippians 1:6 MSG] *emphasis mine
Jesus, many hearts are bearing the great weight of waiting today. I pray for help in beholding you. I’m convinced that you are working, and it is a good work! You love us, Jesus, and you take precious time to fashion plans, in ways beyond what our minds can imagine or even understand, in the now.
Awaken us in the waiting hours, to see that they are the holy ones: moments to watch you…to behold you.