Knock, Knock

Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me. (Revelation 3:20)

If it’s true that a front door is a home’s smile, then mine is frowning. Dull, dinged and drafty, my door has seen better days. My husband and I decided it was time for a new one.

I cheered, Hooray! and embraced the search process. I scoured the internet, pored over catalogs and talked with sales people. We talked to friends and examined every front door in our neighborhood.

Still I’m even further from making a decision than when I started. Who knew there were so many choices? Solid or glass? Elegant or understated? Steel or fiberglass? Double door or single with sidelites? Dark or light color? I have made up and changed my mind dozens of times.

My husband has patiently listened to my many door iterations. But last week when I presented my latest idea—and then changed my mind the next day—he jumped off my crazy train called indecision.

“I thought we’d made a decision,” he sighed.

“I don’t know. I’m still not sure.”

Not that I know what I’m looking for, but I know I need a vision to move forward. It’s just the way I am. Plus this really is a big decision. A front door is expensive and it sets the tone for what’s inside. It’s where your home puts its best foot forward. And I don’t want to misstep.

A while back I was a newer Christian and everyone was buzzing about finding their purpose—the thing that God had put them on earth for.

“What’s your purpose?” others asked.

“Gosh, I don’t know,” I replied.

Honestly I don’t think I’d ever seriously considered the question before. But, since I was committed to growing as a Christian I figured I should put “finding a purpose” at the top of my to-do list.

I read books. Talked to others. Listened to preachers. And examined my skills. But nothing solidified. Should I lead or follow? Teach or be taught? Work with children or adults? Be in the spotlight or work behind the scenes? Serve locally or globally?

I was overwhelmed with indecision and an impending sense of failure. What if I make the wrong choice? What if I don’t discover my purpose? What I don’t even have one!? I didn’t have a vision and didn’t want to make a mistake with such a life-defining decision, so I did nothing. I didn’t want to step out until I could get it right.

In the years since, I’ve learned that finding my purpose is nothing at all like buying a front door. It’s like opening a door that’s already there. It’s not a one-time decision I’m stuck with: it’s a process. A process of taking little steps. Of saying “Yes” when I’m not sure of the destination. Of having faith that when Jesus says, “follow me,” I can trust where He’s leading—even when it’s way off my map. This process isn’t even one I’m driving, it’s one that I’m discovering.

Just like my front door’s primary purpose is to keep out the elements and intruders, my primary purpose as a Christian—and yours too—is to “sing the glory of his name; make his praise glorious.” (Psalm 66:2) We all share this purpose. Our lives need to point to the Father. How we accomplish this is where we display our individuality and where our Creator displays His incredible creativity.

Kelli Regan

I’m an ordinary girl in love with an awesome God. In my quest for adventure outside the everyday I've experienced God in remarkable ways…and in remarkable places. Together we’ve trekked inside the walls of a maximum security men’s prison, to the bottom of the Grand Canyon, into post-earthquake Haiti, into the hearts of beautiful brothers and sisters in Christ and so much more. God’s blessed me with my lifetime traveling companion, my husband Dan, and our two children, aka adventurers-in-training. I share insights into my adventures both big and small. I hope they shine the light of God's awesomeness into your life and spark a desire to venture into life outside the ordinary.

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7 Comments

  1. Super reminder of our true purpose. Love the door analogy.

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  2. Wonderful post, thank you. This was so timely for me. Praise God for His affirmations! For everything!!

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  3. Thank you so much for sharing this devotional today. I have also been on a quest lately for what God want out of my life as I submit to Him. I felt as if I could really relate to this post.

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  4. I’ve found that my gifts and love language match the purpose God gave me. Discovering it though was exactly like you said – a one-step process. You cannot leap to the end of the process. You can only step ahead with the choices given you – one step at a time, one choice at a time.

    I rememember God telling me to do something and thinking I should have had it done last month or last year, that I was late, behind – and I just had the revelation. I had to stop, slow down and realize that God didn’t give us a mission where we started already behind. He gave us a mission and time to grow into it.

    I love your post. It is so timely because no matter how old I get, God has new things for me to do – and I just need to stop rushing around like a chicken with my head off and just take the next logical step:)

    I’d love to know what door you settled on:) I want an old-fashioned front door that is glass:)

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    • Thanks for your wise thoughts. How refreshing and encouraging that we’re not behind, playing catch up with our mission.

      God’s timing is always perfect. As for my front door, I still haven’t made up my mind!

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  5. It is definitely a process…I like how you worded it “of saying Yes when I am not sure of the destination.” Our job is to step out in obedience and trust Him when He is nudging us. Thank you!

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  6. Great insight, Kelli. Finding our purpose is opening the door that’s already there and then walking through it! Once we’re outside on the daily path, we have God’s Word to guide us. And as you put it, we sing His praises as we walk. Thanks for the reminder.

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